Ever had one of those Mondays where nothing seems to be going right? Or the littlest things irritate you? Ya, me neither.
Truly, I don't have many of those days, but today was one for the books.
It started with little to no sleep last night. I know this one is completely my fault and could have been avoided...but for some reason Hillsong sounds so much better at night and in my bed. Then there's my unhealthy relationship with
Dance Academy. If you've ever watched it, you know what I'm talking about... I was at the pivotal part at the end of the second season... and I just couldn't help myself. Around one o'clock I collected myself and decided it was time for bed (oops!)
Then I decided I was going to regret my new idea of waking up 15 minute earlier, in hopes of not rushing out the door, so I gave myself 30 minutes of extra sleep time and mapped out how I would makeup for it by having my quiet time in the car on the way to work. I've been excited about this since I finished Lara Casey's Make It Happen last week and bought a Beth Moore audiobook.
Need I say more?? It's Beth Moore for 9 hours! Let's just say I've been going through withdrawals and was really amped up for the drive to work! What a better way to start your week, am I right??
Haha, no. I went to play it this morning and the app kept closing itself. In my desperate attempt to not be one of those people on her phone while she's driving, I tossed my phone aside and decided to settle for the fuzzy Christian radio station and to fix it on my break.
It wasn't too bad at work. Just a little slow, but that's usual on Mondays because we have an extra set of hands at the workshop. My plan was to go to Starbucks after work to enjoy a coffee and pleasure reading, then study for my praxis test, which is next week.
Wouldn't you know, I couldn't fix my app, so for about an hour I flipped through radio stations. (Mind you I'm driving through the mountains of Pennsylvania and there's little to nothing worth listening to.) You know what else? I thought I was going to splurge for a new route to Starbucks and lift my spirit with a little adventure. Ha! Little did I know that my phone took me on two toll roads so by the time I actually got to Starbucks, I had basically spent all the money I was going to use for coffee on road tolls!
Seesh! But thankfully after a little bit of trying to calm myself down (and fixing the BM audiobook problem), I decided to head home. I had been looking forward to hearing her maternal voice again that I couldn't bring myself to stay at Starbucks and suffer through math lessons (on an almost dead laptop) so I went home.
Best decision of the day!! I about cried when I heard her voice in the parking lot. No joke. (Remember I told you it was one of those days?)
Looking back on it, it was really funny because after that initial sigh of relief and flood of emotion, I did a little jig in my seat because my plan finally came through. The lady a couple spots down from me was on her phone and laughed at me... like threw her head back and I could see her mouthing the words, "Oh my goodness, you're not going to believe what just happened!" Haha! Oh well, I had my Beth Moore book and I was happy.
All of this to say... my day didn't go as I had planned, but the Lord had something else in mind for me. I was being stubborn and had to have my set routine and when they got shuffled, I threw a fit like a child. I have so much to learn when it comes to my attitude and surrendering to the Lord. I feel like I go through phases where I learn to give my desires to God and then I do well with it for a while. Then I go through another phase where I learn how but it's a journey of sanctification and I'm learning. Slowly but surely.
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Now I'm signing off, with my favorite candle burning, a mind that feels able to handle math problems, and a little wisdom from Beth Moore and Lara Casey.
